Where do I begin? There have been a lot.
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The Q&A, The Guardian, 4 July 2026 source ↗
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View all 209 →One of these days I will encounter what Henry James called on his deathbed “the distinguished thing.” I will not be conscious of the moment of passing. In this life I have already been declared dead. It wasn’t so bad. After the first ruptured artery, the doctors thought I was finished. My wife, Chaz, said she sensed that I was still alive and was communicating to her that I wasn’t finished yet. She said our hearts were beating in unison, although my heartbeat couldn’t be discovered. She told the doctors I was alive, they did what doctors do, and here I am, alive.
In dreams, but that’s about it.
Childbirth. And the wheel of our camper van coming clean off on the M1.
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View profile →I bumped into an old schoolteacher and her even more ancient and deaf sister, and she shouted to her, “Remember Esther? Now she writes books … ABOUT HERSELF.”
Life’s too short to take offence.
We watch over those we love.
Safety or alarm, I can never decide which.
An inability to see the other side.
For the words to fly from my fingers as just occasionally they do.
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