I did a TV job, Ain’t Misbehavin’, purely for the money. I was disappointed with myself and, inevitably, incredibly unhappy.
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I work on other things. There's usually more than one project brewing. I also write. I also listen to talks; I love listening to black feminist thinkers or listening to people read their poetry. What I try to do is fill my arsenal. I'll put this shit down or I'll pick something else up. Like some days, I just take whole days where I "play," and that's where I'll only do production stuff.
It requires me to be in prayer and meditation daily, or else I will literally spiral out. It’s something that I put at the forefront of my life.
Visibility doesn’t equal power.
So I don’t ever feel the urge to kind of rewrite the work.
It’s investigative curiosity at the beginning, this phase of questioning and garnering. And at the end it’s instinctual. It’s a sweet spot. There have been times where I’ve gone out and presented something thinking that it’s done and then brought it back. I’ve gotten audience reactions, brought it back, turned it up a little bit, and then it was done. Sometimes my finishing process requires me to see it with a large group of people.
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