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How close have you come to dying?

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Roger Ebert

Film critic

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One of these days I will encounter what Henry James called on his deathbed “the distinguished thing.” I will not be conscious of the moment of passing. In this life I have already been declared dead. It wasn’t so bad. After the first ruptured artery, the doctors thought I was finished. My wife, Chaz, said she sensed that I was still alive and was communicating to her that I wasn’t finished yet. She said our hearts were beating in unison, although my heartbeat couldn’t be discovered. She told the doctors I was alive, they did what doctors do, and here I am, alive.

Salon, excerpted from Life Itself: A Memoir, 15 September 2011 source ↗

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Noel Clarke English actor and filmmaker
A car crash in the Utah mountains in 2005. We were driving from Arizona to Salt Lake City to go to a basketball game and the car slipped on black ice and we skidded off the motorway, flipped over and rolled down a ravine. The police officer said it was the worst accident he’d seen in 18 years when nobody died.
Recorded The Guardian, The Q&A, The Guardian, 3 April 2021 source ↗
Being about nine metres away from a polar bear. In northern Canada, a young polar bear was very intrigued by our food. I was flying the drone at the time and the polar bear looked up and started paying attention, so then we flew the drone further away and he followed it while we got into our vehicles.
Recorded The Q&A, The Guardian, 30 September 2023 source ↗
Bradley Wiggins British former professional road and track racing cyclist
I had quite a chequered childhood. I had a knife put to my throat once when I was a kid, which was very scary.
Recorded The Guardian, The Q&A, The Guardian, 21 September 2019 source ↗
A piece of scenery fell on my head during Richard II at the Globe theatre in 2019. I was very badly hurt.
Recorded The Q&A, The Guardian, 25 October 2025 source ↗

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Question What has life taught you about being human? Values & belief
When I was a child the mailman came once a day. Now the mail arrives every moment. I used to believe it was preposterous that people could fall in love online. Now I see that all relationships are virtual, even those that take place in person. Whether we use our bodies or a keyboard, it all comes down to two minds crying out from their solitude.
Recorded Roger Ebert's Journal, rogerebert.com, 6 November 2010 source ↗
Question Does the thought of dying frighten you? Death & what remains
I know it is coming, and I do not fear it, because I believe there is nothing on the other side of death to fear. I hope to be spared as much pain as possible on the approach path. I was perfectly content before I was born, and I think of death as the same state. I am grateful for the gifts of intelligence, love, wonder and laughter. You can’t say it wasn’t interesting. My lifetime’s memories are what I have brought home from the trip. I will require them for eternity no more than that little souvenir of the Eiffel Tower I brought home from Paris.
Recorded Salon, excerpted from Life Itself: A Memoir, 15 September 2011 source ↗
Question What do you fear most? Identity & self
Many readers have informed me that it is a tragic and dreary business to go into death without faith. I don’t feel that way. “Faith” is neutral. All depends on what is believed in. I have no desire to live forever. The concept frightens me. I am 69, have had cancer, will die sooner than most of those reading this. That is in the nature of things.
Recorded Excerpt from Life Itself: A Memoir, published by Salon, 15 September 2011 source ↗
Question What is the hardest thing that has happened to you, and what did you carry out of it? Failure & regret
Thank God I found sobriety. I could sustain myself with my work, my reading, the movies, my friends. And walking, walking, walking. Of all the purposes of education, I think the most useful is this: It prepares you to keep yourself entertained. It gives you a better chance of an interesting job. ... I can't remember the last time I felt bored. I can't eat, drink or talk, and yet I have so many other resources to keep myself entertained. I think I must be a case study.
Recorded Roger Ebert's Journal, rogerebert.com, 6 November 2010 source ↗
Question What lesson has mattered most in your life? Time & hindsight
I believe that if, at the end, according to our abilities, we have done something to make others a little happier, and something to make ourselves a little happier, that is about the best we can do. To make others less happy is a crime. To make ourselves unhappy is where all crime starts. We must try to contribute joy to the world. That is true no matter what our problems, our health, our circumstances. We must try. I didn’t always know this and am happy I lived long enough to find it out.
Recorded Salon, excerpted from Life Itself: A Memoir, 15 September 2011 source ↗

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